Sooo.... I got my iPod.

YAAY me.


I like it, its cute. xD I named it Corky. (I like that name okay?)

Ugh... I decided to get off my fat butt and organize my brushes on PSP8.

Its taking for-freaking-ever.


-___- More later. 

Ima cranky xD

My moms home. yay....

I GOTTA FREAKING IPOD!!!!!!!!!!



I <3 eBay 

Hey guess what?

I not dead.

Yay me right? 



So anyways, I wrote this cool crazy thing, and... here it is. :p

Title: To Guard
Rating:PG
Canon/Genre: PotC:AWE(post)
Warning: Character death
ANGST YAY!!!

:O

freaking fish =_=

I gotta wiiii

I gotta wiiiiiii

I gotta wiiiiiiiiii

and im excited :)

heheh, im happy.

and i think i got blocked by bff for guess what?

teasing.

ugh.

i hate teenagers...

I nearly died today.

Yes, yes...

-cue dramatic music-

I rode in Tims Car!

-le gasp-

and got peed on. (not by tim)



And it wasnt that bad. Tims a good driver, and the boy was three. and cute. Ha. :)

Movies tomarrow, yay... I saw Rataouille with Chantal and Zach. It was fun. Zach had like these saucer sized eyes at the movie theater. To quote him, 'Movie fun.'


I love little kids. :)

And I was an idoit.

My apologies to anyone that read what I had written. I had no excuse for it, and I will claim none. I was in the wrong, I only hope that you all can forgive me.

-Kat

One of the kids that goes to my school is lost in the Willamette. :( He and a friend were swimming across and the current got him and he got carried away. They are still searching for him, but he went missing on tuesday. I didn't know him really... he was in my choir and he was a year below me, but from what I knew I liked. :( His brothers are in my year though...
I want to be optimistic, but its hard.

So, to Zach, wherever you are. May you be happy and safe, and may your family have peace no matter the outcome...

OMG I FINISHED DEATHLY HALLOWS!!!!



....and I am in shock. =_=; Its over!!! no!

I really need to start putting up more...

West has a new java Crew. and im addicted :) i heart my java crew xD

im in an orca drawing craze. dont know why. i suck at drawing them though =_=;

what else?

oh, somebody close to me may be getting into my myspace account. =_= SO pissed about that.
What else?
Oh, i have mouse! for my laptop :) and a gig of RAM for my laptop. No more lagging!!!
Well, not as much anyways.

and I got into a sig making craze too 9_9; yes, i am a dork

im getting ready for the OotP premire, im pretty excited... me and mom are going out for shopping later. :) I may be going with my ex which could get...awkward. oh well. i dont mind being friends, i really like him as a friend, i just want to be _friends_ nothing else. period.

anything else?

yesterday was the most boring 4th of July. ever.
my best friend told his gf who like. thank you soooo much. 9_9; if he tells a certain someone, i will kick his ass. =_= so much for being discreet, right?
(says the girl who put up the photomanip on DevArt)

So yeah, you know those annoying little bulletin things that flood myspace? Yeah. They are addicting.

=_=;

I was bored, and I did one those boy survey thingy doohickey mahbobbers whatevers, having, wanting, hoping for one person to reply.

Guess what? Only one person replied and he's a wannabe stalker.
Even worse, he's a assholic wannabe stalker.

1. I was right next to you: shy away
2. I kissed you: freak out
3. I lived next door to you: get in a lot of trouble
4. I started smoking: show my concern, but not disrespect you
5. I was hospitalized: make an excuse why i cant visit every day
6. I was drunk: eat all your food when you passed out
7. I hugged you: wouldent be the first time
8. I asked you to leave: id say ok
9. I asked you out: pass out

on a 1 to ten scale.

10. personality: 11
11. eyes: ? hum 10? i haven't seen them sense high school
12. hair: 9
13. body:... hum, your ante no Sharon stone, 7

14. be my friend: tell the end of time
15. keep a secret: maybe
16. kiss me: no, maybe in a one in a million opportunity, you'd be drunk, my girlfriend lute me, and you would have to be waring a halloween costume of your choice... at midnight, in canada... next to a blue house, in a red ford mustang... in possible.
17. go on a date with me: yeah, why not?
18. keep in touch: yeah, why not?

...

Omg I could have beaten him up.

Asshole.

=_=

anyways... went camping, that was fun. :) Paws was fun too if exhausting... What else?

my dad tried to blame my aunts mengagtis on me and tried to stop me from going camping, and hes hinting now that he may not let me go to the Harry Potter premires.


Ha. Try me -_-

Oh, and he is the only parent in the world that _does not_ want his 18 year old daughter to get a job.


but, he bought me a full set of prisma colors. and other stuff.

if only i could convince him to replace my ipod...

This is the worst freaking week ever.

Monday my ipod got stolen, had a breakdown in the middle of fourth and the teacher that thinks I'm an idiot saw me crying. And probably thought I was crying because of him too, cause I started crying when he was talking. :(
Tuesday, ipod is still stolen. Failed my third period, tried to show a video to my third period teacher. Wasn't on my laptop, couldn't get it on youtube, tried FIVE different computers, and i was late to fifth.
Today, got to second, bsed my way through that. Break was okay. Went to the library for my fourth and the teacher was a bitch. Got about half way done, asked my teacher if i could finish it either 7th in the library or 8th during Acadamic Support.
"oh. You can do it during 7th IN MY CLASS'

Fuck.

So yeah, failed that final.

Break, was the greatest prank either. Three words: Streakers and crickets. :)

Hell yeah.

Sixth, I had a panic attack during the essasy. BS'ed my way through it.

After school, someone came by and someone was being so sickly 'omgness its j4oitjoi3' i wanted to knock her head and remind her shes taken.
And she was being a bitch to me when i was around him. T_T; Hate her.

knowing my luck, he'll end up liking her and it'll get rubbed in my face and yeah.

but she doesnt know i like him and its fucking staying that way.


someones gf is annoying the hell out me, and he is too for that matter


anything else?

and either three panic attacks are taking thier toll and im just stressed or i may have an ucler.

And i feel sick


oh yeah, im talking to ex again

and i think he may like me. still.

......


YEAH FOR GOOD LUCK FOR THE KITTY!!!! OMG!!!






=_=

So yeah.

I like this kid. And I think he may have liked me.

The probelm? He was a senior and now he's gone. And I could have siad something. but yeah. Im a chicken.

Kitty has talents

I probably only did this because i am pmsy and annoyed...

but OMG it felt good.

First off, I really hate this kid. she annoys me to no end...

i posted a comment on a video of hers pointing out some arguments against it... and I go back to find out '!' its deleted. And comments are disabled. Gee, thats funny. :o so I went back to post on her page, and I said

'First off...


I loveeeee how you deleted my comment on how your 'Freedom is Beautiful' video is bull. And then disabled comments so no one else can comment how much bull is in it.

And I love how you steal photographs without asking or credit. Isn't it odd... that you hate MSQ and yet you have _so_ many pictures? Isn't that say... hypocritical?

Hm? What are some more of your lovely traits? Your one sided, you don't sound like you know what your talking about... oh wait... is that called... a moron? I believe it is.

Grow up little girl. You act like an idiot who does not know what she's talking about

And if you delete this like all the other negative comments you get, I'll only be speaking the truth. :) '

...I feel soooo much better. :) If she really deletes this, or cusses me out I am going to laugh. Bring it bitch.

-No one knows I've lost my soul, so long ago-

You know, the depression is worse then ever. I have never wanted to start cutting so badly.

But I don't because that makes my life worse, and then I drag people down with me.

But I'm tired of this, tired of not wanting to be at school, but hating being at home. I'd run, but I have nowhere to run to. Part of me wants to drink, do drugs, so sleep around... anything to escape from this black crush.

But if I do that, then nothing will pull me back up.

-Forget about the life I used to know, forget about the one I left at home-

I don't even know whats causing it anymore. People at school are being stupid, a few in paticular. I know I have issues with my friends and being ditched... and sometimes their view on it and mine do not coincide. I know part of it, most of it is from the crash after Prom.

Three dances in a row where I got ditched by my date. Who else does this happen too?

First one, it was okay... I had more friends and other people to fall back on, so I was okay.

Second time was... weird. Cause there had already been drama beforehand. But it was really lonely being in the middle of that cold dance, and turning around and going, "where'd he go?"

Third time could have been worse. It still sucked. I don't know why I was so sad... he deserved to have a good time. I probably overreacted.

That did not mean I liked standing there on the dance floor going, 'well come on, don't forget me.'

and is it wrong that someone keeps on laughing at me that my date got stolen?
Jesus, I already have issues with being alone, and being ditched. I'm trying to bury prom and she goes, "ha ha! Kat got ditched!"

She doesn't know about me, about what happened to me... but she doens't need to. No one does. Tim said that I should tell nate and Zach what happened. Nate would use it against me and Zach...

I don't even want to see him anymore.

God, we used ot be really good friends too... what the hell happened?

Why is it, that I think I'll have these really good friends and then two minites later, poof

-I'm standing on my own, forgetting about the life I used to know

Can't go back to that place.-

I am so tired... even though I got home Wednesday evening. It feels like it went by wayyyyy to fast, like I never left :( Depressing.

Day one- Got up at o'dark thirty in the morning. got dressed, woke up dad. Went upstairs to finish some last minute things and then sat around waiting for dad. Went downstairs, and he's still asleep. =_=; Wonderful. Wake him up _again_ and sit out waiting for him. Get yelled at for waiting on him. Which is... backwards. Get yelled at some more because I'm tired and he thinks I'm sick. =_=' Finally get to the church, get stuff loaded, say bye and all that jazz and get onto the bus.
Everything's going nicely and... the bus breaks down. And everyone who was on the bus last year look at each and go 'Omg, are you freaking kidding?' so we hang out for an hour or two and it was really fun... really it was. :) I ended up just talking with the grown ups. We got to Mt. Shasta and I was sooooo sick during warmups. Liz said that my face went from red, to green, and then to white. Great, so I'm a freaking christmas tree, wonderful. I spent the warm up thinking I was literally about to faint or be sick, neither of which happen often. We finally go to the Host's family house and omg she had so many animals! one aussie shephard, a rabbit, two border collies and four cats... :) I was in heaven. THe aussie, Daisy, climbed up onto my bed and I gotta snuggle her a little which was great cause I was really starting to miss my dog. Liz and Keri gotta a thin mint stuck in the air hockey table and guin cussed them out. xD Me and liz stayed up really late talking and finally I said, "Liz, we're going to play a game. its called very still and very quiet. First person that talks loses, okay?"
"Okay."
Five minutes later, "AM I on SLEE?"

xD (she thought every time you talked you got letters and if you got up to Sleep you lost.)



-more later-

Yeah...

I was in Teaching young child and my group got to cook the snack.

Uno probelm.

I was the only one who knew how to cook =_=

-sigh!-


I uploaded a picture onto my myspace from Snoball and wow that brought back memories. Besides that not being the not-most-fun night of my life...just...I dunno drama. :p
And I dunno... that picture kind of hurts now. Considering we never even talk we had been really really good friends, or so I like to think. And then randomly we.. just stopped talking and he just was really cold.
I have no clue why, I dropped choir but I wasn't in his class and...

Sheesh this is dumb.

{{I just finished reading this realllly creepy book. And yeah. I'm a little freaked out, and I don't wanna go to bed, cause I know I'll be thinking about it (I _hate_ the huge window in my room on nights like this...) so... I'm hoping this will relieve some of that freaked-out-ness...}}

Trapped
---------

The rain pounded on the window. Her breath caught in fearful hitches as she turned the page, eyes scanning line after line.

A noise, a dull hollow beating from far away sounded. Her head popped up wary, eyes scanning the room.

Nothing happened, nobody came out.

She sighed, adjusted her postion on her couch and her blankets, checked her light and read on, following the heroine in the lair of a monster, shuddering in macabre thrill as the pages told a twisted tale.

The rain pounded on.

Another crash, closer, she looked up. No movement, no more noise. Disturbed she sat up and looked around, being careful to avoid the window, her pulse was racing...

No one was there.

Carefully, she settled back into her cozy spot, glancing up every now and again, trying to bury herself in the words, pretend it wasn't real, there was no noise it was the storm...

Crash.

At the sound, she leapt up, looking about her, nearly screaming in fear. A branch pounded the window, making her jump then laugh in giddiness. Feeling foolish, she looked down at her book, and decided to finish it in the morning. Padding down the hall, she stopped.

She looked behind her, no one there.

Then why did she feel like someone was watching her?

Quick glance of the windows, no faces staring at her.

But even as she stood there still, she heard a creakkkk....

Jumping, she turned and bolted for the nearest room and slammed the door shut, already chiding herself for being high strung. Houses creak,a dn there was alot of wind outside.... Stupid book had turned up her nerves so high that....

A hand snaked around her throatand held her mouth shut pulling her toward a hard body, as a glittering edge pressed against-

Her eyes flew open in the dark.

Breaths in hitching gasps, she lay in the dark, listening to the creaking of footsteps above her. She rolled over on the hard floor, huggign her bare knees for warmth. her eyes strained for light that would never come, not unless _he_ would open the door... She trembled at the thought. Closing her eyes, begging for sleep, release, anything to get her out of the cold dank cell, part of her wondered...
How trapped is a person, when even dreams offer no escape?


.end.

(Yes. Its crappy. Mwhah!! xD))

Yeah, okay, I'm a moron...

First I kept putting my name in as 'an_angels_eyes'


No comment

Then, when I finally figured out my mistake, I put my password in wrong. Three times..


I are smart!1 xD

I walked home with Brian, Maeg, and some dude... Travis I think his name is? Yeah.

:) It was funnnnnn


At one point Brian called me blonde. (I'm not, I'm just easily exicted and when I get like that, I tend to just talk... never minding potential embarressment.) And so I was like, "Oh yeah? Bring it on, bring it on!" And so we did this lttle joke fight which I stopped after a second.

Maeg: Kat 0, Brian 1

Me: *smacks Brian below the belt with her lunchbox*

Brian: *KEEL* Ow!

Maeg: Kat 1, Brian 0

Me: *hugs Brian* I'm sorry *laughing*

Brian: *walks me into a POLE*

Me: x_x

Brian: Lawl

Maeg: Brian 0, Kat 0, Pole 1!

xD It was funny


And earlier at lunch, I had ran over to Matt and tackled!hugged him from behind, and Erik came over and taclked him from the front...and punched me in the face (on accident). Then a few minutes later I was goofing off with George (he stole mah whale :( ) and Erik grabbed Geroge to help me...and punched me in the chest. He was all like :O!!!! T__T I'm sorry!! -wail-

xD

And Nate stole my pencil case and we were messing around for a while with it, and then he sat on it.

..a.nd I grabbed for it.

...and then he closed his legs.

...It was reallllly awkward. xD